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FWD: Do you believe in a higher power?

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 18, 2008, 8:42 PM
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Well, my good friend *siriuslylostwerewolf had a very serious poll this night; and my reply was so long...and I had let out so many emotions into this one comment, I wanted to share it with you all...and see what you think. I don't care if you get angry, just don't yell at me too much...or too harsly...okies ^^;

I speak nothing but the truth and the whole truth; I've let all of this out of me; these are my true and very real feelings; don't stop too hard now ya'll...and please try to be kind; I've let a lot off of my chest here.....I hope you all can understand my point of view.

So now....the underlying question: Do you believe in a higher power?


My reply:

In all honesty...I'm still trying to figure it out. Half the time I feel like I'm just saying I believe in God just to say it; just to make my friends happy...but honestly I don't really know. I haven't been moved or influenced by anything yet..or well, I mean I have been moved, really moved, by short plays and things that I have seen about Jesus; moved to tears even. I believe he was a great man, one who died for what he believed in, which was his people.

As for the Lord God in heaven...I have yet to "meet" Him; to believe that He's truly there. I mean....I feel as if there could be a greater power out there, one that governs us all.....one that decided to give this earth a life and the inhabitants of it...who is now most likely punishing us by just sitting back and watching us destroy ourselves >>;

But...well...I hate saying that I don't believe in Him....because if I say so people look at me like I'm the Anti-Chirst or something >>" I can't help it; my family never pushed God onto me; never influenced my way of thinking. My mother told me that she wanted me to decide for myself...and so I guess I shall.....someday. Until then, I hope that no one looks down upon me for not going to church, for not finishing the Bible, and for doubting His great and almighty existence; I just have yet to find my place in the world, yet to have found my great beign...my saviour, my god, lord and protector.

And I hope that people can forgive and understand me here when I say that I truly do not know what exactly to believe in; with God and Jesus being advertised; with some people making me feel like I'm going to hell if I don't believe in him; that I'm not human if I don't; or that it's all just a hoax, that's it's not real, that it's stupid......I'm just well....I'm really confused, that's all. With the way the world is today, who can rightfully blame me for not knowing?.... I guess I'll just have to search my whole life for the answer; and I'm perfectly contented with that really. I just hate it when people make such a huge deal out of it...it makes me feel unholy and extremely uncomfortable...then make me feel like a walking sin or something....

I sound like a self-centered brat don't I? >.< Oh well...it's the truth, it's what I think and feel; and damn does it feel good to get this all out....I think I'm going to post this into my journal so that I can get other peoples opinions.

If you get angry at me I understand, if you understand me I'll feel grateful; if you want me to shut-up....don't comment ;_; Be nice if you try to "flame" me for not loving Jesus....I'm sorry that I'm so confuzzled.

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God Bless till then I guess~ I hope I can understand who I feel is the higher power; it does make me feel proud to hold my hand over my heart and say the words "One nation, under God" in my nation's pledge of allegiance. So maybe I do believe in him? Gah...I'm so full of doubt it makes me want to strangle myself! @~@


Till next time~
:iconkisharu:~Kisha-chan

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*Fates-Broken-Wings:iconFates-Broken-Wings: Apr 29, 2008, 9:36:18 PM
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~raptor007:iconraptor007: Apr 29, 2008, 7:54:23 PM
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*GONE-EVERLONG:iconGONE-EVERLONG: Apr 23, 2008, 8:36:35 PM
You are in my 4/23 journal

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~Grrote:iconGrrote: Apr 21, 2008, 4:58:06 PM
... and now I'm fine.. o_o

its really strange xD

its because my school has a "sierra" climate xD highland's climate xD

a LOT of sun... but A LOT of wind.... so you dont know what to do, to keep your jacket or.. too be without it xD

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~Kisharu:iconKisharu: Apr 20, 2008, 5:53:04 PM
Again? Ahh you poor thing D;

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~Grrote:iconGrrote: Apr 20, 2008, 12:45:34 PM
haha xD
I think I have a cold now.. :s

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~Kisharu:iconKisharu: Apr 19, 2008, 7:17:40 PM
awww, poor thing D;

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~Grrote:iconGrrote: Apr 19, 2008, 2:42:15 PM
yes, its sucks pretty bad, I'm still recovering my normal voice... somehow :D

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~Kisharu:iconKisharu: Apr 17, 2008, 8:06:37 PM
Heh~ They really stink don't they? o.< Ooh well that's good x3

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*Kiley-Oyekasu:iconKiley-Oyekasu: Apr 14, 2008, 7:39:16 PM
It did. :D
XDD

Okies.

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~Kisharu:iconKisharu: Apr 14, 2008, 7:33:07 PM
Skunk! I didn't get to try that one when I made one xD

Haha~ Mini-slap! That's so cute~ Glad that you liked her! *wags tail*

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~Kisharu:iconKisharu: Apr 14, 2008, 7:31:39 PM
I know what part you mean, but the description clears it up well~ At first I was like...huh...what's that thing there---oh...0///0"

xD Give me a description and we'll work on it in Engrish~

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*Kiley-Oyekasu:iconKiley-Oyekasu: Apr 11, 2008, 8:55:24 PM
One part freaked me out at first, til I read the description. I like it a lot. Don't know if Ren's pet will be like that version, but I do like it. Awesome description and very well drawn.

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~Grrote:iconGrrote: Apr 10, 2008, 6:48:17 AM
oh, than that's what I got xD but i didnt come (i'm in my school lol) to schl when I had fever... so I wasnt contagious.

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=slappydog:iconslappydog: Apr 10, 2008, 4:21:39 AM
xD I tried forever with the face markings. Eventually, I went with Skunk and Nose Stripe. =]
Yes I did! :D I called her....MINI-SLAP. xDD


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~Kisharu:iconKisharu: Apr 9, 2008, 8:57:19 PM
I LU MOAR D:<

Thankies~ Ooh I need to credit her in my sig like you did thar D: I'm such a dork to not credit her wonderful work! :B

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~Kisharu:iconKisharu: Apr 9, 2008, 8:56:28 PM
Aww, it's such a cute little Kish waja xD I tried to make one when I got bored one night as well~ But yours looks closer than my tries <3

Ooh and did you get that waja I sent you? :D

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~Kisharu:iconKisharu: Apr 9, 2008, 8:55:33 PM
Heya Yami-chan~
Aww thankies! *continues to chase tail* It evades me! D<

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*siriuslylostwerewolf:iconsiriuslylostwerewolf: Apr 9, 2008, 8:22:56 PM
I LOVE YOU:glomp:

Awesome new avvie btw. XD

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~Kisharu:iconKisharu: Apr 9, 2008, 7:56:31 PM
If you have a high fever, and you feel like you can't breathe...maybe a bit of coughing....and possibly congestion...yes...that's a head cold D; Don't go to school with a fever though! D: You're contagious o_o

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~Grrote:iconGrrote: Apr 9, 2008, 7:29:01 PM
head cold? is that what its called? xD i dunno, jus fever, and a veeery high fever ._.

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~Kisharu:iconKisharu: Apr 9, 2008, 7:17:16 PM
Woo for guitar! :D Haha xD

That's very good to hear D: It really sucks to have a fever....and a head cold =_= that's what I had when I couldn't breathe well once o_o

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~Grrote:iconGrrote: Apr 9, 2008, 6:44:28 PM
YEAH THE GUITAR IS LIEK THA SHIIZZZ ilu guitar~ xD its waaaaaay better than the controlers and I play in hard and medium :)

oh yeah, i'm much better :D I can actually breathe xD

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10000 kiriban screen pls
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Edward=Gaspard <3
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Read the Books first and then watch the movie!